As Expected

So, I took a nap when I got home from work yesterday, which is pretty much the kiss of death to any sort of plan I may have had. I didn't really even plan on napping, I just laid down to read for a bit, and the next thing I knew, I was being woken for dinner. The problem with napping, while I do love it, is that the rest of the day all off-kilter. I ate lunch, took a nap, then woke up to eat dinner. There was no time in between. Which basically means that my whole evening was shot. I didn't do any meditating didn't get to bed on time. I did read before bed, which was nice, and finished the book I was reading, which was extra nice.

The good news is, I did better tonight. Did my meditating, now I'm blogging, next it's reading and bed. I even brushed about a million burrs out of my cat's fur earlier this evening, which made me feel extra productive. Word of caution to anyone who thinks having an outdoor cat may be a good idea, just make sure it's a short-haired cat, for the love god.

I've been having a hard time clearing my mind during meditation. It's part of the reason I've always hated sitting meditation so much. I just find it so difficult to clear my mind. It's always so crazy in there. I really dislike that about myself. Even if there's nothing bad (which, let's face it, in life, there's usually something bad to think about), my brain starts making things up. It's really something I need to work on, not only the making up problems thing, but the clearing my mind thing. It's one of the hardest parts of this whole thing.

I'm starting a new book this evening. It's called "God Against the Gods" by Jonathan Kirsch. I always have a hard time deciding which book to read next. And now that I'm trying to work more on personal growth, and one of the major things I'm focusing on is my spirituality, I want the books I read to have meaning. Maybe meaning isn't the right work, but some kind of order. I don't want to just blindly be reading book after book and not have them connected in some way. I think I'm going to go through my book list over the next couple of days and see if I can find a way to group them together so my reading seems more focused.